Regret .. ..

For the past few days, i suddenly recall of a incident.

It was a day a spent with my classmates, it suppose to be fine.

But end up like not really well.

On that day, she and I argued for some reason that I cannot remember.

Again, i use to same way so that i could calm myself ( no phone call and sms )

But she did call me, worried about me probably, cause i am driving in anger.

We talked on the phone, i got so angry then i yell at her through the phone

so angry that i even wanted to bang the tree,

so loud that i never do it before to anybody, I even lost my voice for couple of days.

i even blame her for causing me losing my voice.

I recalled of this incident, it reminds me of she too always yell at me through the phone.

due to fact that i make her angry and suffer always.

I think she really gone through one hack of 9 months with me.

I really feel very bad and sorry for her, for stuck with me for that period of time.

If only i could do better...

But there is nothing to be sorry about anymore, just me carrying all those guilt.

no body will truly understand how terrible i feel

If there is a chance to meet her again, i just want to hug her and say : I am sorry, Baby ..

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I wish i could stop crying, but due to the fact that i couldn't, my eye sight actually getting very bad.

Worse than before, i can't really see signs boards or labels from far

It even affect my nighttime driving nowadays. sigh.

I miss her every single day

start to misses her beginning of the day

I try to hold those tears in my eye

but it seems that tears will not be running dry