Hotel surroundings remind me of her ~

Last Night actually spent whole day being busy with my best friends' birthday.

Checking in to the hotel actually makes me feel like training in the hotel last year.

( using key cards) to utilize the lift and so on.

All thanks to my internship that I actually know her.

In the beginning, I actually don't like her and her attitude and I even told my friend about it.

But some how, She is some one that mean a lot to me now.

In the beginning, both of us due to some issue that we couldn't be together right away even we liked each other.

eventually, we got together too.

I can still remember clearly the first time i hold her hand. Its after we finish our work, while walking away from the hotel then i hold her hand. That time i only managed to hold her hand for a few minutes.

So being in a hotel surroundings actually remind me of her, so much had happened while we still training in the hotel.

We got started in the hotel, worked together, had meals together, solve problem together.

I still remember that is one time that both of us actually work at the same shift in the middle of the night.

Due to the reason that we work at different section of the hotel, she actually called me through the phone and talk for some time, cause is kinda boring in the night. She even walked over to my counter to go have supper with me. I really miss that moment.

I miss reading her blog, that She said she had found the one, and would tear me into pieces if i mistreat her.

And she did, I am in pieces now .. BIG SIGH ..

I still cry until now

cried this morning

due to the guilt that i am still feeling now until today

I hate my attitude