My Feeling at this very MOMENT

i only know that i really miss her.. miss everything that happened between the both us.

When i drive alone in my car , i always look at the passenger seat imagine that she will be there

talking to me, smiling at me, laugh together with me

i miss her massage on the back of my neck so much, whenever i feel tired when i am driving

the feeling just very nice, that i can feel the warmth of her palm

its just better than anything else in the world

!!!

I wish so much that all these will happen again

but just it wouldn't

i feel so regret that i never appreciate when she is with me

that i always take her for granted

now that my phone is very silent, i wish she would update me, asking about me ...

like what i have been doing all this while, i really miss doing it

it feel very strange that nowadays that i don't have to update her

*whenever is it now

* wherever am i now

* whatever am i doing now

* whoever is with me now

i miss the time she reach her working place, she having her lunch, she finished her work

those are the time that we can chat with each other ..

that i could still fetch her home from work

walk her home taking the stairs

she would wave at me at her window seeing me leave ( which i am very reluctant )

i regret that i speed when i fetching her home, if i was to drive slowly, there will be more time to spent with her

i really misses her very much !!! tears dropped .. .. ..