8:30am, 11:30am, 5:30pm make me a Emo Kia = Emo Person

Since yesterday morning i have started to be emo again.

Things started to float back into my mind.

I could just wake up and cry and fall asleep again.

I just feel very painful and suffering.

I just feel like crying every single moment, but i can't .. that is very suffering.

I force myself to hold my tears, to act like i am fine with everything, but obviously i am not

I cannot show my family that I am that much devastated.

Every morning, I would wish that she will sms and let me know that she have reach her working place safely, but of course she never did after the incident happened. = 8.30am

I would wish her to tell me that she is having her lunch now with her colleagues some where near her working place, tell me what food she have for her lunch, but of course she will not tell me anymore. = 11.30 am

I wish and pray so hard, that she will let me know she have finish her work and on the way back now, and ask me to fetch her home. But of course that didn't happen ever since she left me.

5.3o pm

All this time in the day, it will remind me of her. those hour that i will normally received her messages. But now my phone no longer ring during those time.

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I Truly feel very painful and suffer nowadays

As if there is something wrong with me, right , there is something very wrong with me nowadays

Nothing really gain my attention nowadays, NOTHING ~!

She will not know how terrible i feel nowadays, and she will not bother or care.

People tell not to continue like this anymore, no matter how much you cry and suffer, she will not know or bother, why still do all this. But what choice i have, i cannot control myself?! She have been part of my life ever since she be with me, i don't do all these to show her, its just that is really how i feel.

Life just not been any better after she left. I tried to be happy, I really did ...

I want her to come back so much !!! I want to celebrate Chinese New Year and Valentines with her every year ! ! !

joesonghabnida !!!

Your B is still waiting for you !