Major Changes to My Life

Started to write blog, all due to the guilt within me myself ....................................... Someone which is very important to me just left me in my life. Though it have been 2 weeks, i still feel it like it just happened last night. i feel so terrible. very very very terrible. . . in this 2 weeks, everything just flash in front me, all those images and memory , sweet or bitter , happy or sad ..

I don't really know the reason she left me. she given me plenty .. but the reason i know is that she tolerated me alot all this while, or even since the day we be together. the more i recall , the worst i feel .. sigh .. it causes me couldn't sleep , eat , and drink .. i lost weight, lost appetite, lost myself .. I wanted her to come back, but it seems very impossible ..

i feel worst as day goes by .. she starting to ignore my call , my sms , start with blocking me in FB , eventually got me deleted. i don't blame her for all this, as i might annoyed her. some time i really cannot help myself to reach her, something which i have been doing for the past 9months. some might say that 9months is not really a long period, but for me is how deep the feeling and how the 9months have been but not how long the relationships span.

I feel very guilty .. .. .. for losing someone that i love very much , but used to love me