My Chinese New Year ~ Coming Valentines. . .

Happy Chinese New Year again ...

I could say this is the worst Chinese New Year ever for my 21 years of life.

On the way back to my hometown, will actually pass by the place call Sungkai.

I actually been there with her, to the a very famous hot spring at there.

taking the same route there and back, make me recall the our trip there .. BIg Sigh ..

For my Chinese New Year dinner there at my hometown dinner, i actually have it with my relatives at the restaurant.

the settings, surrounding and atmosphere, again recall me the last time i have dinner at such restaurant. it was during her grandmother's birthday dinner ..

I still remember how nervous i felt that time, getting to meet her grandmother and her relatives.

haihz. . . i must be a very dumb person still thinking of her every single day after so long, still torturing myself, being so immature.

But i really can't help myself to think of her all the time, everything just seems to recall me of her . Even a small little child, would recall me of her childhood look, though it's not really clear in my mind, but i still think of her due to that.

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Just another week it will be Valentines Day 2011, Big Sigh ~~~

seeing all those sweet couple make me feel very envy and very sad too ...

I have not celebrate Valentines Day with her before, was always thinking of celebrating with her

I remember not long after i be with her, in order to know more of her past, i actually read her blog, since those very old post.

I still recall there is a post in one of the year's Valentine Day , she actually post that , Cheer for single Valentines Day, due to that

I promised to celebrate Valentines Day in the future years to come with her, after reading the post.

But we can't even managed till our 1st Valentines Day, I feel so sad and regret for that.

I still remember my promise and i still Wanted to celebrate with her very much

!!!!

but she don't wanna celebrate with me anymore ... sigh ..

Since she celebrated her CNY holiday overseas, i think she had a wonderful time there and forgotten everything sad that happened especially ME , but of course i didn't forget her a single bit and still love and miss her just like the day she left me ..

I wanted to celebrate all the special days with you still

小涂涂, always love you !!

no matter how foolish everyone think of me ~ Sigh