都知道了哦？

原本没打算说的，都知道了 =。=

告诉了之后，感觉很迷糊，做梦似的，很不真实。

拿手机看看了内容，才发现是真的，不是梦境，而是真的把事情摊开来谈了。

其实也算是完了件心事吧？

说真的，我也没做过什么，我其实是不敢！万一把事情搞扎了，怎么办？进退两难

就算没搞扎又怎样？也不是一样吗？ 就跟我要求继续装傻，没那回事，若无其事，没两样 ~

其实我不敢说是因为我不敢面对现实吧，事情是不会像我想象那么完美

就算我说我放弃，也是随口说说，我也没有这个念头，这也不是一朝一夕能改变的

问我为什么又这样的感觉，我也真的答不出，就有吗！怎样？！

Let it be, let it be.............

Recently ~

最近我喜欢了一个她

一个很难明白的她 ，

就是搞不懂，

很苦恼。。。

她好像是知道了，但是知道了又怎样 ~

有时候宁可她不懂。。。希望她不懂。。。

Even though I know you how much how much you hate it, I can’t do anything but this
In front of your door, just idly waiting

Even though I’m so miserable, it’s better than losing you
I can’t lose you, so I stay near you, in front of your door waiting

You who won’t answer my calls anymore, you who doesn’t want to see me at all
No matter how I beg for forgiveness, there’s already no use

Waiting by your door, even if you pretend you can’t see me
Brushing past my shoulder like seeing a stranger you just met
Waiting until you are willing to hear me say sorry

Looking at my phone ten times a day, even jumping at the slight sound
To find out if you had sent me a text message

At first, at first, I thought like normal fights you would come back
Because you’re such a nice girl you wouldn’t be so cruel to leave me

You who won’t answer my calls anymore, you who doesn’t want to see me at all
No matter how I beg for forgiveness, there’s already no use

Waiting by your door, even if you pretend you can’t see me
Brushing past my shoulder like seeing a stranger you just met
Waiting until you are willing to hear me say sorry

2AM - You Wouldn't Answer My Call

It's just like what have happened to us

I'm Sorry ~

One month Later ~

One month later after that "special" day ~

Terrible day !!!! I am such a sitting duck !!

438 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Went to report Police, but the other driver didn't show up !!

Hopefully my car can be restore back to normal !!

I have been wondering ~

16th of March 2011

Finally "I" make it to 16th of March

It suppose to be " We", but its now " Me "

16th of March could be a normal to many of you ...

But it could be somebody's Birthday

But it could be somebody's Working Day

But it could be somebody's Holiday

But it could be somebody's Happy Day

But it could be somebody's Sad Day

But it could be somebody's Race Day

But it could be somebody's delivering Day

It use to be a normal day in my life too, but now it seems a little bit hard for me to go through

16th of March ..Its suppose to be a special day

but it had turn into a normal day, a rather sad normal day

Bui Kia ~

During my Diploma studies, my group of girl friends have given me a Nickname

Bui Kia =Fat guy in Hokkien dialect

Lately, i have been trying to work out everyday, and i started a week ago .. LOL

I hope that i could look different by the time new college semester starts ..

Friends, wait and the see the face-lifted Dex/Cullar Tho a.k.a Bui Kia

I have not been seeing you for some time
but i still could see you in my dream

you are always WELCOME to my heart and soul

My Life Lately ~

Have been training for last 2 weeks, and is very tiring, though just facing the computer.

Fantastically, for a person that doesn't like figure or mathematics, can survive in the financial dept.

Since it just + - x / , so i still managing

its taking me ages just to sort out credit cards bill, calculating, keying into the system, just for a day's business .. LOL

after being in the Income Audit section, I am now in the Receiving or offloading bay

everyday check products that the hotel ordered from the supplier, from canned food to life seafood , apa macam pun ada .. haha

in the hotel for 2weeks, have been experiencing fantastic colleagues which willing to spent time teaching me.. thank you so much OneWorld Hotel colleagues ..

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lately i have addicted to travelling, especially on weekends..

i just dun feel like staying at P.J for the weekends, it just make me feel " EMO "

i have travelled to PorT Dickson last weekend,

and Tomorrow am going to Malacca ... hehe ..

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Had a dream with about her the other night, it again seems very real, i was hugging her, but in the dream i realized i am dreaming again, and actually i was hugging my bolster..

Erm, nvm .. maybe its good to dream and hope dream come true ...